Could you give me a good reason to why i should stay alive?

You can't live someone else's life and they can't live it for you. Why are you so worried about what others think. They can't live for you. It's your life, move along and your own comfortable pace. You can go to a trade school. You'll make money while you take an online course. There are advisers at the schools. Go see about putting together a life plan for yourself. don't forget you may have to change your plans along the way so don't worry about being side tracked now. It's life and every one goes through this. There are many solutions to your problem, just don't lose any sleep over what people think.